plateau broken (TW ED)

i need an online space to vent about my ed cuz i was banned on twitter lol

anyways i recently fixed my weight plateau cuz i was stuck on a certain number and it was killing me, all it took was taking my meds (that i don't take much so i still experience side effects) and it killed my appetite for 2 days and i've been eating less recently. its quite a thrill finally seeing the number on my scale go down again, maybe i'll reach my lowest weight again in a few months. i'm just so sick of not having an empty stomach i may just go back to ice and black coffee again. woohoo. i was looking through my old bodycheck pics and i wish my ribs and hips would poke out like they used to again, they started doing it tho recently, i also miss my thigh gap.. i just wanna feel small and sickly again..