girls dont like me

fellas what am i doing wrong

i try to be cool but i end up failing and i think my personality is too weird for people to like because i act like an edgelord all the time and it's so corny LMAO. i get too attached to people and then i start talking about random things from my past and i feel like it scares them because i'm too honest with them sometimes

when i go to school i always crush on a girl that will never like me back and do nothing and then mess it up 

not really mess it up but something bad happens to me and i have to move schools and never see them again

i am still in love with her rn

i made a stereotypical joke about egyptians and my most recent crush called me racist for it but i think she was joking 

on a night of october 28th i realized that my life was going nowhere because her and some other nga were holdin hands and going behind a shed full of playground toys and boy, if thats not gay i dont know what is...

i cried myself to sleep and wrote a bunch in my journal for the first time in months

she was and probably still is so pretty but i never knew too much about her all i know is that she liked making your mom jokes and was gay asf

the lesbian agenda

she probably thought i was ugly because the ideal pretty girl to everyone in the 2000s is the perfect skinny--but not too skinnyat least average weight-- white girl blonde hair happy go lucky personality while i am the extremely underweight black girl with the personalitty of a edgy dream smp kid or a psychopath, dude

i remember in november i raided a server full of tcc kids and honestly it kind of stuck with me because that was when my whole life fell apart 

this was truly the rock bottom point of my life

i was beat up and got a concussion and now i bet that whole school sees me as a pussy

really hope that no one from there uses spacehey 

i idolized the columbine mfs for a good 4 months and honestly i just can't quit being like that and idk why

it just stuck with me

hopefully when i go back to school this year i will become back to normal maybe get a gf