addicted to the company

 addicted to the company 

 The smoky skylight shines of cigarette ash and clouds that once filled my lonely apartment

gray and sleepy yet never getting enough. 

How is it that the the ever stinging smell lingers longer than most

it was always there for me 

when the drinks ran dry 

and the alcoholic laughter faded 

Making shadows of the people who never deserved to be that close

 who never dared to take the responsibility of caring. 

The shadows that makes me drop to my knees. 

They remind myself that all I ever had was me.