hey I'm back!... sigh...

sorry for the absence to all those out there! not that anyone noticed or cared, but I like to pretend anyways. my laptop finally met its match, and the flimsy, near-broken charging adapter finally broke. my laptop could no longer charge, and after an unnecessary amount of putting it off, I finally got my laptop fixed. this old girl still lives on for another day, and that means I get to draw digital art again. The only tough part is getting back into the swing of things, but that's easy and I'm used to it. And to top everything off, I got weed again. this brand new dispensary-grade cart that took nearly a week to get here. it's as great as they say it is, a hint of milky-ice-cream flavor with a smooth, yet impactful high. finally, a way to distress after work. mm mm mmm

despite all the mixed (yet mostly positive) outcomes I have finally coming back online, I'm hit with that depressing feeling that sinks into my chest. the feeling of loneliness and longing- the longing for my old friend group(s). 

man, I miss those days. they were some fun times, and the chaos made it all the more memorable- and fun tbh. everyone's growing up and focusing on life stuff, and it's just kinda left me obsolete. nobody really has a reason to care about me or be my friend anymore, and it sucks. I miss everyone, even if more than half of them turned out to be nasty people. it festers in my chest, this feeling stings so harshly. I wish I could have a friend group again, one that was as weird and quirky and open as I am on the internet.

I feel like my chances to find more likeminded aliens are slim, but not impossible. for some strange reason, I still have my hopes.

to nobody in particular, 

Marcy