The Truth About My Toxic Mother

It is not my intention to write about myself. I will speak about my toxic mother, Linda Lee Becsi. On the internet she has an article made by her ex husband, what he said was a lie, however what I am writing is the honest truth. She is not someone you would not get along with, for example, she judges people if they are gay, trans, or have a black partner when you are white. I simply call my mother homophobic, transphobic, racist and has taken her Christian religion too far. I have lived with her for 14 years, for how Ive seen her act towards people is truly disgusting. She has even talked about her own friends who have been with her for so long and love and comfort her, she talks behind their backs to ME about how they don't do exactly how she likes it. My mother is very controlling about everything I do. She always compares me to my childhood best friend to the point that I hate her. I became really insecure about everything I do, even how I look! My mother painted me out to the villian to the rest of my family, and told me I am the reason my two beloved dogs died.

She wants me to be the "perfect Christian girl". I AM SICK OF HER. My mother won't support my interests, only what she wants. One time she took me by the throat picked me up and threw me. However, she mostly took me out to the garage by my hair and hit me several times. I grew suicidal and depressed. It led to me trying to end my own life three times. 5 years later I found a person who has become so close to me. They ask me to never kill myself, I promised and becuase of them I became more stable. My mother is toxic to this day! She said something that finally made me snap and write this. One day I will show her that I am not that scared kid anymore!