i need a FUCKING lobotomy

i am constantly reminded of ur existence 

and its so painful 

u exist in every part of my life

i ruined things with u 

yet u are the only man i cant seem to get over

u are the only man thats stronger than me

u are the only man capable of tearing me apart with 6 words

u don’t understand how much ur mere presence effects me

10 second sighting in the hallway 

hearing ur name

seeing old things i wrote about u

i am constantly reminded of how ill never hear u tell me u love me anymore

never hear ur stupid jokes 

never get mad at u 

never hold ur hand 

ever again

i miss u so much i can hardly stand it

i miss u so much its hard to breathe 

i miss u so much i dont know how to function 

ur all i think about 

u consume my every waking moment 

i dont know how to exist without u and i dont know how i ever did 

i was once the center of ur existence and now i am the bane of it

im sorry i couldnt be what u wanted 

but u are all i need 

im sorry