First entry...

And it's going to be a sad one :(

My sweet kitty passed away early in the morning of June 14th. Absolutely sudden and unexpected. Her liver and kidneys just shut down and the vet couldn't figure out why. No positive test results for anything and there was nothing that could be done. Needless to say I'm devastated beyond words. I cried so much in the week afterward that my eyelids actually chapped and peeled, and I can't stop thinking of what signs I must have missed leading up to this. The hole in my heart aches 24/7 and I don't think I'll ever stop blaming myself. She is the only black cat I've ever had, my darling sweet Halloween kitty. RIP baby girl, I'm so sorry. If I had any idea anything was wrong I would have taken you to the vet and sold everything I own to pay for whatever treatment might have saved you. I will miss you forever.