rambling

im bored and lonely and dont know what to do so i shall blog

my mom used to blog, its still up and she talked about how much pain she was in from her surgeries and accidents and how my grandma didnt like her. imo anyone who doesnt like my mom just doesnt know how well she treated us even if she wasnt always there she gave us such love. i wish i had gotten to know her more. all i know of her is stuff ive heard or found, like she loveeeeed ghost adventures and the color purple (thats one of the few things i actually remember), she had those funky scissors that make patterns in the paper and she taught me how to use them. She diciplined me and wouldnt force me to eat what i didnt like (i have sensory issues(unknown to my family but i feel she knew, moms know) and some food makes me shut down). My few memories i have of her are good ones, she loved me i know she did. i remember me laying on her with a kids book (maybe some electronic book or game, memory is fuzzy) and i started to read aloud and she was so amazed. She had no idea i had learnt to read. im not sure how old i was but it was before five. i also have such a weird vauge memory of this game and in it was a game with a monnke yand it was kinnda like doodle jump ish but with monkies and bananas. dont you hate when you have a vauge memory of something from when you were a kid but you have noooooo idea what it even was remotely so yoou dont know howd youd look for it. i need a nap.