a new era

hello fellow spacehey users and whoever is willing to read this mind dump, I am ahtzi and I am currently going through a new era in my life and making this blog is a part of it I guess. I went through my first breakup that I still haven't fully recovered from, met a douchebag I thought I could replace him with, got played with, and did the typical thing that every girl does which is dye my hair. Although I look different I still feel just as broken. For the last couple of months I've been looking for someone to make me happy and fill that void in my life only to be constantly disappointed. It's kind of pathetic actually, being so hopelessly delusional that someone will fall in love with me at any given moment. It is only just yesterday when my best friend read me my tarot cards at her sisters birthday picnic that she told me that big things were coming my way but only if I take the courage to let what's holding me back go, when I heard that it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I finally came to the realization that I need to take this time to explore what makes me happy. Although I have no experience with making clothes I am going to start because I love fashion and I have so many ideas on what I would want to make, and even though I almost had a breakdown setting up my sewing machine, I am going to start making my own clothes and the thought of it makes me very happy. So whoever is reading this I hope you join me on my little journey of self fulfillment and if nobody reads this which I hope to god no one does lol, then this is just a little reminder to myself to keep going and that I can do this :).