ive fallen out of art / i need something terrible to happen to me

ive fallen out of my art
not even like im in a rut i just haven't felt at any moment like "i want to write" or "i want to draw" or "i want to make a song" for about half a year
something strange clicked off in my head recently
i need something terrible or incredible to happen to me
something to force me to express it
but ive just not felt any powerful emotions about anything for some reason
ive been so neutral
i dont know why