never stay alone with your thoughts.
what's the worst that could happen if you sit with your thoughts?
realise and recognise the pain you carry?
decide you don't actually like that friend of yours because you want to be treated with respect?
try to escape the suffocating feeling of resentment towards your family?
how you were betrayed?
and for fuck sake here comes rent day again.
what a load of bollocks.
the depths of your thoughts branch out into your circles. friendships, lovers, and family bonds. workplace. societal structures. war. war? war. famine. the climate crisis. suffocation. constricting thoughts. what once used to house a revolutionary fire within you is now home to despair and disappointment. why? because you alone will never and can never fix any of these things.
'this is how it's always been' they say.
pour over history. relentlessly record ourselves and our failures. the war criminal is happy with his victory but it is yet another failure of his kind.
decades of it. centuries of it. for millennia.
you are merely living in a timeline that has different perks and quirks of its time. there will be many more to come. it's always been like this.
has it really always been like this?
does it ever get better?
are we supposed to live this like this? battling each other.
this is our design. we evolved and it wasn't enough. what part of our brain is it that makes us this way? adamant to spread hatred. feed the ego. the bigger the ego, the bigger the violence. satiate the ego. victory isn't enough. we must dominate. and then what? for what?
we caged and shredded our predators so we became our own predators.
let's kill each other for sport. we can call it war.
is this really the best we can do?
are we not bored of the same predictable storyline? living in cycles. confined to cycles we are doomed to repeat. what for, exactly?
is this the best we can do?