Meet-Up with my ex and sneaking a boy into my room

Hey guys ^^

The last blog entry I posted was a while back so I thought I'd give y'all a life update on what has been happening (it's been a lot).

So first of all my best buddy from school is now in the psych ward for a few weeks, which means I spend my school days mostly alone. It's totally fine tho. The only annoying thing is all the group work we do so every time I need to ask groups if I can join or the teacher puts me in a group. Sooo annoying like let me do my sh!t alone.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

Now secondly, I met up with my ex a week ago...

He now has a car so he picked me up and we went to McDonald's, ate on the parking lot, talked and just chilled. It was sooooo random. The reason I agreed to meet was cuz I thought he got important sh!t to tell me, but no. So, you might think why this is so controversial. Well, I'm not gonna go into details, but one "friend" (gonna talk about him in a second) was very concerned, because he knows a lot abaout what happened with me and my ex. It's a lot of $exual and a little emotional abuse. But the meeting went well. I accidentally agreed to go into a sisha bar with him like UGH I hate that I can't say no. I will tell him that I need distance tho.

Oh and also, next week is one of my friend bday and he texted her happy bday and asked if she's gonna party. She said yes and he replied with smth along the lines:"probably can't join". She sent me a screenshot and I just told her to invite him cuz tbh he doesn't have many other people cuz like he met up with me cuz he didn't wanna be alone. It's gonna be ok tho.

ME CUZ I'M SO STUPID HELP

Lastly, onto my "friend". It's a long story on how I met him and what's going on. I'll probably post another blog about this. Anyways, he lives a few hours away, but nothing too crazy and he's coming over tmr!!! I'm rlly excited and also nervous ofc. He's insane tho like this guy is driving 4 HOURS to me (by train) and has TWO presents for me. He can't even go into my flat so we r gonna meet up in the city, drive to my town and then he waits an hour or two outside until I come back to him. Then at night I'll prob sneak him into my room LIKE WTF. This is gonna be INSANE and I WILL write about this. Prob gonna write a whole love confession about him soon I can't he's so sweet.

This how he got me feeling fr ><

This was most of the stuff that happened. Obv there is some more but it's too fucked up to write on here and also I don't wanna put this on here.

What have y'alll been up to lately? Let's chat!

Love,

Jamie :3