Wish I Had Real Friends

21st June 2023

Dear Friend, 

I’m not gonna sugarcoat it, as I sit here writing this bulletin from my bedroom, I feel very reflective. None of the “friendships” in my life are more than mere acquaintances, which I only talk to in class. None of them are interesting, and some haven’t hit the point where they stop acting childish. Today I watched a movie, “The Perks of Being A Wallflower”, and it made me realise how devoid of action my life is. Everyday is the same loop.

Well the chances of my life drastically changing for the better within this year are slim, people in school are bland, and to be frank, my tolerance for people in real life is incredibly low. Online is not much different, even if someone who happens to be right DMs or texts me, I have nothing to talk about, they inevitably end up never replying after a while. I hope the school holidays last long enough for me to come to a conclusion, or for something better to happen. 

About SpaceHey, well it’s becoming quite bland. I’ve finished coding my profile, and adding a lot of people, even though I have over 170 “friends”, I talk to none of them. Perhaps it’s my style of text messaging, which breaks usual texting conversations by using proper grammar and punctuation. I never understood why people would intentionally use lowercase letters for texts. I’ve been reading about the emo subculture, I relate to it a lot, but I keep it a closeted affair, as dressing emo wouldn’t be socially acceptable. 

Well, guess that’s all for what I have to say.