june 19th 2023

i had a long and full day actually, but god im so mentally drained that i dont think ill be able to write a full blog.

ill shorten my day and try to leave out some not so important details.

had to wake up extra early, dad had to drive me an hour to a bus stop then i had to drive another hour in a bus full of teenagers, strangely enough? like its 8am, its summer break for most of teens, why are you guys here.. and they were all so cool, i felt so awkward next to them, cause damn i did not look cool at all.

anyway, when i got to school finally, i presented my ideas that i worked on yesterday that i mentioned in my yesterdays blog, but they all shot ALL of my ideas down??????? grr i was so mad i tried to argue with them but whatever 

teacher assigned tasks for each group and we had to assign those tasks to ourselves. i chose to draw our product in adobe illustrator and photoshop, cause all my groupmates whined and whined how they didnt want to do it. it took me..... 5 hours................. 5 agonizing hours, but i did it! with trial and error, i made it perfectly and it was quite fun tbh!! it made me realise that this is definitely something i want to do in my future. 

sure i got really overwhealmed and overstimulated at times, but thats part of the process. i took small breaks, cleared my mind, figured out what i was doing wrong, sat back down and finished everything, making it perfect. i didnt care that i stayed later than necessary, i dont care that i remade the stupid ball 3 times, it was fun and i enjoyed the process. plus it looks hella awesome :3

anyway (i said this would be short, but oopsie) after that, i missed my bus so i didnt wanna be waiting around for an hour for the next one, so i went to a comic store, got 2 diluc pins, a venti pin, a childe pin and a black butler manga!! i got the manga only for the hot trans lady and istg if she isnt in this volume......... idk what im gonna do

then i got home, almost cried over too many tik toks, went to shit, realised why ive been so emotional (iykyk) and then made macaroni w cheese!!! + almost cried again like 5 times teehee

anyway!! thats all for today i think :] i didnt get to play roblox today, but theres always tommorow.

P.S. MY OOMFIE CRUSH TAGGED ME IN A "i should text him" KINDA VIDEO AND SAID "REMINDS ME OF YOU" WOAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IS HE FLIRTING?? TEEHEE?????