Im too damn good at everything

Warning: if you read this post u probably wont like me. I might sound proud or cocky but i am just telling you the cause of my struggles, and overall exactly why i dont have a lot of friends.

I’ll just admit it in the get go: i am too damn good at everything.

I would be super happy to know about it as a kid, knowing how adventurous i was, and determined i was … and maybe that’s how i need to behave. But … i dont really appreciate myself enough. At least, i dont do it as much as i used to. I grew up as an only child, deprived of attention from others. And as i was growing up i became very good at a lot of things, because i spent a lot of time working on myself. And maybe that’s a good thing … but the bad thing is, when you become extremely passionate and people think you are super talented, they avoid you …

And it’s the truth.

I dont really like talking about my achievements at all, because… i rarely find people with the same interest. And when i do tell them about it, it’s very hard to make it seem like i dont have any other intention but to tell them more about me. But no, it just puts more pressure of them (i dont know what’s in people’s minds) and somehow they think i am just too much for them (or at least that’s what i thought) and then they just … leave. I thought there was a problem in me to not be able to treasure friendships, but it’s not … it’s not that at all.

So sometimes, wheni get to know others, i make it about them, and not me.

Bc its the only way.