Yipi

Soooo,This will be something a bit strong to start uhh, since yesterday I've been harming myself, it wasn't anything to worry about 'cause the wounds weren't even deep at all, they were just "scratches" yk uhh, I was going to keep doing it but I think I'll stop here. There is a hellish heat and I can not continue using long pants, besides, I think I'll do more productive things than cutting myself at night. This thursday I'm going to see a band so I hope it's great.. Even though that girl I had a crush on MAYBE be there, I don't care, I want my friends to have a good time after all 'cause I won't see them for a while, school is over.. just kidding, fucking vacations, it will never end, well yes but there is still a long way to go before I leave that horrible place and go to another much worse.

I think I should be thinking about something positive because when come back to high school the counselor would ask me how I was and what I did, I really don't want her to know any of this or she'll get me a psychologist and talk to my mom. I know it's the best for me but come on, I've been doing great all these years alone, at some point I'll go to a psychologist but not now.

I will paint again because this year a girl dragged my face to the floor in a high school painting contest, I came in second place, not bad for the shit I do.

Hopefully in these months I'll change, maybe I'll exercise and stuff, really I just want to listen to loud music but hey, I can do it in whatever I want now.