love is so surreal

i still remember my first kiss with my at the time gf in the girls locker room like yesterday which is find honestly insane. i hate being a lovey dovey person n all bc ik that theyll never appreciate my effort like ever. like not my fault i wanna write silly love letters and mail them to you and buy you flowers and stuff like woah. i also love writing lovey dovey stuff (i say this as im writing the most gut wrenching saddening angst) idk love is js so surreal man