hiii perhaps you will read this

Compliments of the season to you! Hope everything is fine where you are. I don't even know where to start, but I know I will work this out. i actually found your cute since highschool   uhuh it seems very pathetic right? were in the last year of collage and i still think like that even im with another man, so here i am before become crazier and actually im never like this before so its make me kinda scared. at the first i thought it just a highschool crush but ya i was wrong

How can I get closer to you? I'm too shy to talk to you, so right now it feels safer to watch you from afar and not be rejected. You have a place in my mind. I wish you'd tell me everything I want to hear, but haven't yet. Still, I'm scared, because I'm growing a deep feeling inside my heart that I just can't explain. I truly don't know what your feelings are, but I don't want to force you to tell me something you don't really feel towards me. 

One last thing before I go. I have wanted to tell you something, but have not been able to bring myself to do so--