15/06/23 -About Me-

Hi, This is my first Blog!⋆｡𖦹°‧★

I have been thinking about how to start writing these, it's so hard because I find myself so cringe..

So I'll just be telling about myself and my life situation.. 🎣

My name is Milian, I'm 18 and live in Europe. I live near the ocean and I hate this place. I like the sun and the sea but I can't get any friends here because I don't speak the language. 

( + it's a small, old ass town)

I also like cats and small white dogs and tamagotchi and my family. My hobbies are digital art and writing letters, I have penpals from Germany, USA, South-Korea and China. I hope I can become a pilot or an attorney one day. I have always thought about writing a blog or making videos so I guess I'll start now. I take a lot of photos and videos and like doing it. I would say I'm good with other people but I honestly enjoy spending time alone more. 

I'm also really unlucky person...    

 I have been taking a "gap-year" because honestly, my grades haven't been great. I spent most of my last year of junior high school in hospital so I didn't even get a chance to study. Two months before my 'graduation' I got an ADHD-diagnosis so it didn't really help my situation. 

At first I didn't care about school too much and went to a vocational school to become a hairdresser. But I hated how wet hair felt, it was driving me insane. And some of my classmates were bullying me.. It wasn't a big deal tho because they were really pathetic at it and clearly insecure, but I couldn't spend 3 years with them.. One of my classmates was a Regina George wannabe who said something like 'This is the survival of the fittest' and it was just some mid European cosmetology schools first year and we were 16..

I hated him so much that I finally got motivated to study and get a job and have a good life!

I hoped after my gap year (which I spent in a boarding school) my grades would get better and I would get into a good school finally, and move out of my depressing little hometown, but that didn't happen.. 

Today I got to know that NO SCHOOL had accepted me as a student, so I have no idea what to do..

I have a job, kinda... Their system isn't working right now so I haven't even had any shifts yet.. It's not something I wan't to do for the rest of my life anyway.. And I was so ready to move out of here.

It's actually so bad I even quit therapy because I was so positive I would get somewhere, so I don't have funding for that anymore..

Should I just go to some vocational college? I hate the Idea but I don't have any other plan right now, and I really just want to graduate high school. 

I have even been thinking about moving out of the country, because clearly nothing works out for me here. I'm a lil desperate tbh!! ☹

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And I don't really know where I'm going with my blogs either so I'm open to suggestions!

I like to talk about my life and read about others life but is that interesting to other people??

What should I include in these?