romanticizing being a teen boy (im not a teen boy unfortunately and thats my problem)

im going crazy i want to be a teenage boy in the suburbs who plays a lot of baseball and is very awkward but has a lot of friends who goes on silly adventures with me, i want to have my own bedroom and wear silly pajamas with space imprinted on them, i want to have lots of friends and just be so happy n comfy w them,, i wanr to be the class clown in the class in a small public school n be somewhat known around the school for doing the things i do, i want to have my friends over at my house almost everyday because they live so nearby to me, i want to have a cool IRL friend group,,,,,

basically,,, i want to be a teenage boy GRAHHH