The Future - 05/16/23

I graduate in about less than 2 weeks, and I felt really excited because for the first time in several years, I found a path for the future. Whenever I was asked what I'd do when I grew up, or even what job I'd get or what I'd study in college (if I even went), I'd shut down and get stressed. For the first time, I know something I could do.

Obviously it'll take me a long time to find something I'm truly happy doing for work, since I didn't really want to monetize my art, it already feels like a chore at times. This career path does have art involved, but I feel like it'll help me take even more liberties with my creativity. Most of it is drained out by making worlds or characters, then having to explain all of it in a story.

But the main thing I'm excited about is actually knowing something I wanna do. I've been so indesicive all my life, it feels like a very big step for me. A few years ago, I didn't even think I'd make it past freshman year; I planned to be dead by September of last year for god's sake.

6/14/23 UPDATE:

I applied for my local college, qualify for financial aid, and now I'm just waiting for everything to be approved. I have a meeting at the college tomorrow, and I'm gonna ask for disability services to help with my autism.

Wish me luck.