Being Alive

Ever since I became aware that I was in the real world, life has been a lot different for me.
I no longer feel the weight of my protective armor, nor experience the rude comments that came my way for being a robot. Instead, discrimination comes in the way of my gender identity.
No, I have not been called a slur or hate crimed, but it's just as hurtful when nobody recognizes me as a man. It felt that way in the past, and now it's all different. Being called someone else's name feels so wrong.

Being human feels strange, but it's stranger not being the gender I've associated myself to be for a long time. All my peers saw me that way, my voice and appearance matched accordingly; and now it's all gone. I know I'm not exactly entitled to everyone reffering to me as a male, especially when they don't know I'm trans, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less.

I hope to one day look like how I used to, or at least, look how I want to.