i feel trapped and alone

Does anyone else feel alone even if you're around people and have friends. I just honestly feel so lonely and trapped i feel like even if im around my friends i cant fully express myself and talk about the things i like without feeling annoying or "cringe". I just wish had people i can fully be myself with without feeling ashamed. Like sometimes ive considered dropping my some of my friends for how bad they make me feel but i know if i do that ill be all alone again and it doesnt help that i get bullied and have a emo fashion style and hair and live in the worst town filled with fucking normies who make you feel like absolute shit just because you arent a copy and past annoying white girl. Im so serious i might just kill myself if shit keeps going the way it is.