bs / 13th, june 2023

today was so exhausting.

i worked all day and it was mostly hot but it rained a few times and even hailed?

texas needs to stop pushing their weather to the northwest.

anyway.

ive mentioned it before, but im going to a local carnival this weekend with my mom and maybe my god sister.

she irritates me so much sometimes.

long story short she basically didnt ask her mom if it was ok if she could come and the carnival is in 2 days and ofc shes waiting till last minute to ask her bc she was having an "attitude".

i get it.

i know how her mom is.

shes been through a lot of shit and its best not to push her buttons.

but waiting until the last minute is bs bc not only does my mom hate that shit i hate it too.

bc in the end, she doesnt get to go anywhere bc she asked last minute and she just happens to be in "so much trouble".

shes awful towards her mom and its sad.

shes gonna be 17 this year.

and i hope she knows that once she turns 18, and she pushes her moms buttons, she will not hesitate to throw hands with her bc it will be legal.

not that she wants to hurt her daughter just bc it would be legal but shes a very disrespectful kid.

shes 3 years older than me and acts like shes 10.

always upset when she doesnt get her way.

yells at her mom.

yells at her sister and brother.

shes been spoiled.

and ik her mom only wants whats best for her, but she has let her get away with too much.

ever since my godmother got divorced with this stupid fucking cunt who was absolute shitty towards her and ruined her life literally.

ever since they separated, shit between her and my godsister have been terrible, worse than terrible.

shes was heavy into drugs and attempted su1c1de.

my mom couldnt even talk to her after that.

because having to hear that your best friend just tried to end her life is one of the worst things you can ever experience.

i couldnt imagine.

she doesnt deserve to be treated the way she does.

but at the same time, my godsister has been through a lot too.

neither of them can be blamed.

they have both gone through so much and i hope someday theyll get better.

but anyway back to my point.

she cant be doing shit last minute.

this is exactly what i told her.

"if she says no then thats that ik you want to come but im not interested in getting yelled at by my mom cause shes pissed at you and i dont want her having an attitude if we go cause ik she will so you either ask her tmr or just dont come i dont want to be the one to deal with ur bs cause ur waiting last minute."

she wanted to get pissed saying i sound like her nanna and i need to be quiet.

last time i checked im way more mature when it comes to this stuff than her and if she wants to be able to go places, she needs to check herself.

its embarrassing that a 17 yr old cant be more mature than a 14 yr old.

not that its always about age but the mindset but still.

i dont think i can talk abt this anymore.

im just getting more frustrated by the second.

i cant deal with this or her.

if she doesnt end up coming then wtv its for the best.

i dont even want to see her rn bc shes just an asshole and thinks ik nothing.

news flash, ive known you your whole life and youve known me all of mine.

ik how things are between you and your mom bc i was there.

my mom was there.

ik you, and ik your bs.

so dont.

fucking.

start with me.

thanks for reading.