school and its finally getting good :3

so i go to an art school, the product design branch?? course??? and since all the schoolwork for this year is finished, the month on june is practical work, aka putting our learned knowledge to the test!

honestly the work so far has been stressful and hard, but i cant deny that i truly enjoy it. im not a big fan of torture, but this kind of torture is really great! 

we were given a problem we need to somehow solve. with the solution, we should make a scenario and pick a certain point in the scenario to make a product for. 

im not a very hard working person, especially when it comes to school work. for instance i have an exam in 2 days and here i am, blogging instead of studying. thats a thing i should work on, but for this project, i genuinely worked hard and did my research for each idea i had to make it better and better and actually closer to what would be realistically possible. 

i make a really good product sketch, i think it original, its an easy way to solve the problem, plus a lot of people could benefit from it :]

but the thing is that we were put into groups. my group was full of people who got good grades easily and im not one of those people, so i was scared that i was gonna be carried by them, but when we started working, i realised im the only one whos doing the work?? wow, imagine, ME??? doing ALL the work?? ME???? i just couldnt belive it. it continues for 2 days, only me doing the work and the rest of the group pretending like they did something when the teacher asked us to present our solution to our given problem. it was honestly annoying, because i only knew what i was talking about, since no one else had participated in working, even though i had encouraged them to give me ideas, ANY ideas they could think of, but they pulled out their phones and started playing honkai star rail???? T-T it was frustrating, but whatever. 

next day we were given the task to work individually, sketch out the ideas for the products wed like to make. for some reason they didnt get the memo and worked together??? i worked individually cause i didnt understand that THEY didnt understand yk???? i did tell them "guys you should be working" cause i thought they were just chatting while one of them worked AND chatted, but turned out that no??? they were just telling her their ideas and she was telling them her ideas and then they all just made her draw one idea?? i dont know really, i just know my earphones were in and i was invested in my idea :3

weekend rolls around and we were tasked to fill an A3 paper full of solid ideas and i spent the whole saturday working on it!! and woah accidentally filled 2 A3 papers, but thats whatever, most of the ideas were really bad anyway, so i only had 1 paper full of good ideas. 

i come to school, my groupmates have surprisingly done the assigned work, 2 of them dont like their ideas and are fishing for compliments by going "oohh my idea is sooo bad". i did NOT feed them!!! im like "well sucks, maybe shouldnt have had played genshin while working" (okay i didnt say that, im too scared for people to dislike me)

we have to make a little model of our idea, it doesnt have to perfect, as long as it shows the basic idea. i make quite a few models, theyre not nice looking, theyre pretty rough, but they display the idea i have, meanwhile my groupmates are making one model each, but really detailed and shit. i feel a little odd(/neg) now. their models are so much nicer than mine, crap maybe im doing it wrong??

teacher comes around, asking each of us to present our ideas we present and the teachers really like my idea, i feel so proud of myself! but they do make me change it up a bit, but even after changing it, i really like it.

next day, aka today!!!! we need to present our changed up models and ideas to the teachers and pick which idea the group will keep working on.

my group hasnt even gotten to presenting or choosing whos idea we'll do, but theyre already discussing whos ideas they want to do. none of them pick my idea which was,,,,,, sad to say the least, but my theory is that their models were pretty and detailed meanwile mine was a few peices of cardboard stuck together with 15 peices of tape.

anyway!!! im already prepared for all my hard work to be wasted and for my idea not to get picked, BUT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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the teachers comeover, we present again and now theyre making us vote. they all vote for each other, but im my own biggest fan so i go "i put a lot of work into my idea, so im voting for me" and apparently the teachers really liked that????? teehee blushes and giggles 

so the teachers look over our ideas one more time and they both vote for me!!!!! they voted for my idea!!!!!!!! my idea got picked!!!!!!!!!! 

(gonna mention that we ended up picking 2 ideas, cause the teachers also saw potential in my other groupmates idea and i am not ,ad at it, cause to be fair it is a good idea, but this isnt about her :3)

so now we're gonna keep working on my and her ideas and i'll probably gonna keep blogging about that teehee!!!