adhd

i am very heavily suspecting that i have adhd, specifically the inattentive type. heres a list of traits that i think are adhd related!!! 

note that adhd can be inherited, and i suspect one of my biological parents, if not both, have it because my little brother is diagnosed with adhd (he either has combined type or hyperactive)

-its hard for me to stay still. i never really noticed how much i move around when im sitting because it comes so natural to me. my grandma used to call me a snake because “you slither like a snake in your chair”. when i first was taking an online adhd test to see if i have any symptoms, i didnt think i had a problem holding still. but then i started really paying attention to how i behave and i am always shifting in my seat one way or another

-if i am not constantly shifting in my seat, then i am stimming in other ways. like right now, im biting the inside of my cheek to keep myself from moving so i can write this properly. if not that then my legs would be bouncing. and i know its normal for legs to bounce when you are bored, but this happens everyday all the time.it even gets to the point where my leg is bouncing so fast and hard that i cannot move from my seat and i have to wait it out. another way i stim is with my hands. i often crack my fingers, squeeze my hands/fingers together, open and close my hand in a fist repeatedly, bite my fingers, bite my fingernails, shake my hands, clap my hands, and probably some other things i can’t remember. and this is CONSTANTLY, even when im walking or running around.

-another thing, i forget and misplace things CONSTANTLY. i cannot remember things i was saying 5 mins ago. this isnt with every single thing of course, it’s randomly and has no pattern. even with things very important to me i forget them. i have a system set up for myself and keep everything routine so i can remember where things are. it really upsets me when this is messed up because then im anxious for the whole day wondering if i forgot something.

-i miss social cues. i understand them and when im paying attention, i catch them and go along (unless i dont feel like it). if im not completely laser focused on looking for social cues, then i do things that are awkward. like ill say something embarrassing, speak out of turn, or start fidgeting in a way that makes it look like im not listening in a conversation. this rule doesnt apply to all social cues tho, some i think i can catch pretty easily even if im not 100% focused on them.

-another trait is my bad posture. ive had it ever since i was little. theres no medical reason, i just default to being hunched over. my mom even tried to check with doctors to see if somethings wrong with my back, but no im fine! same thing with how i walk. i dont know how i walk weird???? but i do???? i know that i walk into people im walking with a LOT, but im not sure if thats an adhd thing. my mom also tried to see if there was a medical reason but nope im just weird

-i get in and out of hyperfixations a lot. the most recent being dinosaurs. i get little to no sleep when i get hyperfixated on something because i stay up all night watching and looking things on it. i do really bad in class too because this hyperfixation will take so much of my time i pay attention less than i already was. instead of taking notes ill doodle whatever im hyperfixated on on anything and everything.

-i zone out in conversations. i wouldnt say its a lot but it is enough to be noticeable in almost every conversation i have. and there is different levels to how much i zone out. most of the time its half zone out, where im hearing what someone is saying but im gisting on whatever the person is saying (even before they are finished talking) and then thinking about whatever is in my head. this leads me to miss important details. again, i can still hear everything but im not processing it. 

there are probably more traits that im forgetting but this is all i can think at the top of my head. soooo yeaaaaah