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happy anniversary, my prince<33333333. i am so glad i can be with you. you have made my life so much better, you dont even know how much youve changed my life for the best. you are the reason i am here today. and you are the reason im staying. i imagine living with you all the time, yk. i imagine taking you out on dates, surprising you with so many things, laughing with you at midnight, getting ready with you in the morning, going to bed together at night, buying you crowns and over the top things to show you that you are my prince, and so much more. even though i know it probably wont happen, i dream of living in a literal castle with you, seeing you in a crown, and one of those white shirts, so others can see you as a prince, just like i do. i see you as royalty, because royalty goes through so many things that go unnoticed. princes have complicated lives, and even if people notice them, they never know anything about them. its really cheesy, but i like to think of myself as much lower than you (bc i am), falling in love with the prince, that i thought i could never be with. i want to treat you like a prince, i want to make you feel like royalty. i want to hold you by the torso, and kiss you, bringing you closer to my body, and making you feel loved. i want to do dumb things with you, and dance with you in the rain. i want to pick you up, and twirl you around. i want to make your life a fairytale. i want to be your boyfriend who takes care of you, loves you, protects you, holds you, and stays with you until the end of time. i want us to be those cute boyfriends that you know are staying together forever. i want people to look at us, and be able to say "yeah, theyre definitely soulmates". i want you to feel the happiest youve ever felt with me. i want to experience the little things with you. i want to be with you through the ups and downs. youve truly made my life like a movie. i know you may not think thats true, but it is. imagine a movie about two teenage boys falling in love, one of them talks about the other to everyone, but the other has to keep the relationship a secret. they help each other through everything, get into fights and arguments, but always talk it through. theyre both traumatized, at only 13 / 14, but theyre learning to heal with each other. one started an activism group, likes to stand out, has a lack of empathy for people, kinda likes being an asshole, and will do anything to protect his boyfriend. the other is apart of that group, doesnt necessarily crave attention, always cares about everyone, comes from literal vikings, is really strong, can be really hyper, is learning how to accept love, and would also do anything for his boyfriend. if i watched our movie, it would make me wanna go out at midnight, drinking monster or soda, and just enjoy my life. if i watched our movie, i wouldnt give a fuck about anything. and even with all this shit going on right now, i know that everything will pass. i know that in the future, we are going to be together, and healed, and happy, and love ourselves, and we will understand everything. we wont have to worry about a thing. you make me feel an emotion that i cant describe. you make me feel like there is a reason i am here. and that reason is to love you. you just- i dont know how to describe the emotions i feel for you. i dont know how to describe how you make me feel. im going to make a board about how you make me feel. no words, just pictures. i want to take care of you. i want to hold you when youre breaking down, i want to rub your back, brush your hair with my fingers, put a straw up to your lips, help you hydrate through crying, picking you up, placing you on top of me, holding you tightly, while you cry in my chest, and i kiss the top of your head. i want to stay up at night with you, taking care of my baby boy, you can sit on my lap, and we'll watch one of your comfort movies or shows, while i kiss you, give you back rubs, while you drink hot cocoa, and we can giggle, and cuddle, and ill get you more hot cocoa of you want more. i know you might not wanna leave me, so ill let you hold onto my hand, or arm, or ill just pick you up, and take you with me while i make your hot cocoa. ill giggle, while youre looking at me, with ur precious and innocent eyes, as i kiss ur lips, and pepper kiss your face, holding the hot cocoa in my hands, and seeing you smiling and running back to our room, getting ready for more cuddles, and kisses, and giggle. seeing you eventually fall asleep on top of me, while i rub your back. i know youll try denying that youre sleepy, but itll get to the point where youre leaning against me, ur head on my chest, protesting that youre not tired, while i just look into your half shut eyes, saying "okay, my sweet little prince", knowing that youll be out in 2 minutes, as long as i keep rubbing your back. and even in intimate moments, i want to show you that you are loved. especially in those moments. i dont see sex as a pleasure, or just something to do because ur horny. i see it as a form of knowing that you trust each other to be vulnerable. and i know that the first few times we're doing that, itll be scary, and there will probably be panic attacks. thats okay. im always going to ask for consent before, during, and after. im always going to remind you "i know this is scary, never hesitate to say stop, or push me away", i will always hold you if anything bad happens. if you have a panic attack, ill cover up your body with the blankets, ill hold ur hands, ill breathe in and out with you, ill wipe your tears, and ill hold you in my arms, until its over. ill remind you that you are safe, and that nobodys going to h^rt you. ill remind you that you didnt ruin anything, that this is okay, and that it is not your fault. if you have a hallucination, ill cover your body in blankets, sit you up, hold you, and remind you that ur safe, and that it isnt real. ill wait for the hallucination to end, and ill wipe your tears, and remind you that everything is okay. ill ask you if you need anything for both hallucinations and panic attacks, and ill kiss your forehead, reminding you that ur safe with me. i want to bring you joy, safety, comfort, love, and every positive emotions i can. i know sometimes i scare you, and thats okay. i know that your brain is different than others, i know that you push your limits, and i know that you just need someone who will wait and listen. i am going to wait for you as long as i need to. i will never snap at you, no matter where my mental health is. i will never intentionally break a promise. i will always love everything about you. i will love you, even when you dont love yourself. i will love you, even when i dont love myself. i will love you, even when youre mad or upset with me. i will love you, even when im mad or upset with myself. i want to experience all the amazing things neither of us got to experience. i will do everything i can to show you that you are loved. there is not one moment i will not love you. and i know that there is not a moment you wont love me, as hard as it may be for me to belive that. i see how much you love me through everything you do. i know that you are my soulmate. i know that i love you. i will always love you, oliver. you are my perfect boy.