Rant about my friends/story

So this all started in 7th grade it was like the second week of school and I still haven't really made any friends and than my class is doing some kind of group project it was like a social thing cause it was the first or second week and I was in this group where the people were harassing me about being transgender saying shit like "Your not really transgender you just wanna know what it feels like to masturbate with a dick" Like wtf I just said I wish I was born a man. So they were asking me is I had a dick or vagina so I left because I'm not dealing with that shit so I went to the group near me and started talking to someone in that group and stayed there till lunch than ate with them bla bla bla we talked over a few months and they were normal friends but they all knew each other beforehand and that never ends well and they were never really warm with me I was their whit boy they treated me like a dog they would have me do things for them and have me like entertain them and I was fine with it because they were all I had and I cant usually make friends like that they usually pity me than ignore me than another whit boy came in he's a total ass he's racist and homophobic transphobic ect. and annoying as shit he was the "funny" one but all he would do is talk in a baby voice and recite obnoxious tick tock audios and he just replaced me completely in an instant and when I stooped talking to my friends they didn't care of try to talk to me at all and what makes even less sense to me is this annoying kid was like befriends with my friend who is a black woman and lesbian and the annoying kid is as I said raciest homophobic and to add it on a bit misogynistic so they replaced me for a total ass hole he eventually drifted off and after that nothing was the same he would still eat lunch with us but that's all. Than another annoying kid came in imma use M for her. She has no boundaries and when we were waiting for classes to start me and abunch of other kids would sit on a bench and play uno and M would sit on me even when I told her not to at lunch she would sit next to me and touch me and call me her "fake white boyfriend" and I went along with it cause no one was nice to me like that very often than I guess she got bored or tired of it and stopped stuff was pretty normal for a bit than in like that last few months of 7th grade my entire friend group started getting into k-pop it was normal at first than over summer they all got really into it. It was all they would talk about once school started again and over the summer I got a bit more into  My Chemical Romance and that divide between us got larger (thank god MCR was there I don't know if I could have gotten through it without MCR) I would try to talk to them about it and ask questions but I knew nothing about K-pop and the things I did say were mildly rude like "BTS isn't that good" and M would go crazy and once she didn't talk to me for like 2 weeks but every time I talked about MCR they would say they were ugly and they were bad or ignore me or brush over the topic I at least tried to be interested in what they liked so I tried getting into K-pop but it is factory made trash (I know not all of it is but the stuff they like is)  I liked for a month or so than got tired of it there is no energy. Than the divide got bigger I stopped talking and would just sit and watch them argue about which idol is hotter or yell about how they never come to Florida and other K-pop related shit not once did they try to talk to me I was always the last choice when it came to projects I tried to talk to them  but I either didn't know what to talk about or misjudged their interests I guessed that if they liked K-pop they would like Korean culture and food but nope they didn't give two shits unless some idol made out of half plastics face was on it they were simply trend followers and I enjoyed music that came out way before I was born and even than it wasn't popular like that. than it went on like that till they eventually got tired of K-pop and started likening Taylor Swift and other pop music artists I didn't even know what their interests were cause they abandoned the old group chats and started new ones without me they even made a joke K-pop group called White Blue that I even supported because they were my friends but they still never included me in anything and the divide grew stronger. Than we had a field trip up to universal and no one wanted to sit with me and when I asked if someone did they would look at me in a almost disgusted pitying way and say they were planning to sit with someone else I eventually sat with one of my friends but it was only because someone else signed up for the wrong bus even at the rest stop they would ask thing of me like one of my friends asked me to go into the bathroom with him because he was too scared to go alone like what the fuck bro you've been going in bathrooms alone for most of your life and he knows I don't like going in public bathrooms because I could literally get beat up or killed or outed I look too feminine for the men's bathroom and too masculine for the woman's bathroom.  We got to universal and they wouldn't go on any rides cause they were just really bad at walking around theme parks and when I asked if we could go to harry potter world they just said I was acting like a millennial and said no and we weren't aloud to walk alone and than I was trying to meet up with someone else which never went through and I was on the side for a second calling that other person and the two people I was with one being M just left I went on a ride with another kid and than he left me to go to Harry Potter world but at that point I wanted to go on the hulk ride than I went to look for my friends and found them after a bit. I asked than if we could stop for food but they said no than they stared looking for some one than I was like lets go on some rides but they were like no were gonna go eat this was like 10 minutes after I asked if we could stop to eat than we ate I asked if we could go on the hulk ride and they wanted to do a slower ride first which is reasonable but they promised we would go on the hulk afterwards than they wanted to go on another slow ride which they had me ride alone for than they were gonna not go on the hulk cause they were too scared to do it so I had to practically beg them we finally went on and it was fun it was near the end of our day at universal we were going to go shopping but they wanted Starbucks and the line was really long and we didn't have enough time to go buy some keep sakes (kinda glad we didn't because at this point I don't want to remember them) we got back and went home bla bla bla we were still very distant and it went on like that for the rest of the year I dint go to school for the last week cause there was no work to distract me from the fact that these people who were supposed to be my friends were completely ignoring me or straight up making fun of me I decided why not go on the last day have fun make memories but it was far from that I thought because it was the last day it would be different but no they completely ignored me they were passing around blank shirts to sign but they never passed it to me and M was play fighting with some guy and he was like "wow your friends don't even care" and I didn't like M and she didn't like me but I was trying to repair it or at least pretend for my own sake that we still were I was never mean to her or excluded her but she did that to me so I was joking around with her and that guy and said "she probably deserves it" she than very obviously whispered to that guy "She's not my friend" she even respected my pronouns before but she was just excluding me completely and acting like a total bitch. and all my other friends never once tried to talk to me and when I tried to talk to them they just ignored me than at one point M was whispering and laughing to the person next to her which hit me hard because a lot of my friends before would talk shit behind my back and in front of me by whispering and laughing in the way she did so I decided to go home early and if I couldn't go home I would wait until net class which is one she doesn't have with the rest of our friend group but I later found out that she went to that other class through social media thank god I left. And to the one friend in that friend group who was in my computer class thank you for being nice and listening to me even if I find out you were talking shit about me behind my back your one of the reasons I dint have a total break down.