mitski lyrics that remind me of omori and why

!!THIS WILL HAVE OMORI SPOILERS!!

warningsoverall discussion of mental healthcomplicated relationships w/ familythemes of depression and anxietyabsent family membersdeaths of loved onesunhealthy coping mechanismsmentions of hallucinations (?)mentions of derealization (?)mentions of depersonalization (?)suicide
this was originally a rentry but i turned it into a blog entry!

"i always knew the world moved on
i just didnt know itd move without me
i start the day high and end so low"

this lyric reminds me of sunny using headspace as escapism, completely leaving his old life behind. his friends changed vastly during the 4 years he sheltered himself from the world, as did his surroundings. "i start the day high and end so low" reminds me of how his fights with his phobias always happen at night time (or at least evening)

"i always thought the choice was mine
and i was right, but i just chose wrong
i start the day lying and end with the truth"

this lyric reminds me of the good ending in omori. "i always thought the choice was mine" and "i was right, but i just chose wrong" remind me of sunny and how he could have been regretting the choice to distance himself from everyone. "i start the day lying and end with the truth" reminds me of how sunny lied to himself about mari for years before finally seeing the truth.

"one morning this sadness will fossilize
and i will forget how to cry
ill keep going to work and he wont see a change
save perhaps a slight gray in my eye"

this reminds me as to how kel is likely putting on a strong front in order to keep everyones hopes up. (this isnt cannon, but its very likely. everyone is sad sometimes, and kel seems to be perfectly fine even with everything going on. so to me, it makes sense that he sometimes doesn't show his sadness.) "he" refers to hero, and work is switched out with school. the rest is clear. this could also make sense with sunny, however it reminds me more of kel. (for sunny, it could refer to how sunny shows little emotion and has a slightly different looking eye compared to everyone else.)

"and ill listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry"

this reminds me of how basil and sunny sadly dwell on the past.

"if i could see you
once more to see you
if i could see you
once more to see you"

this reminds me of how everyone misses mari.

"im holding my breath with a baseball bat
though i don't know what im waiting for
i am not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be
smell that, its wet grass, and smoke in my hair
i think ive had enough"

this lyric reminds me of aubrey. aubrey is often seen holding back her tears, which can often make you hold your breath. she also carries around a nailed baseball bat. "i am not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be" reminds me of how her father left her mother, and how she could blame it on herself (though her blaming it on herself is just speculation.) "smell that, its wet grass," reminds me of when she pushed basil in the lake. "i think ive had enough" reminds me of how she has had enough of her friends not being there for her when she was upset and why she became bitter.

"i broke what you gave me
but you kept giving more
and im sorry for taking
but i keep wanting more, more, more"

this reminds me of how aubrey reflects on her actions towards basil on 1 day left. she feels bad for her destructive behavior. she also realizes her actions were worse than basils. these lyrics relating to this don't make much sense, but it's just what they remind me of. it also reminds me of how aubrey realizes she was the one pushing her friends away.

"mom, would you wash my back?
this once, and then we can forget
and ill leave what im chasing
for the other girls to pursue"

these lyrics remind me of how aubrey has a bad relationship with her mother (who is depicted as lazy, drunken, and neglectful of aubrey.) "and ill leave what im chasing for the other girls to pursue" reminds me of how aubrey leaves her hope in her friends behind and abandons them. she sees them at fault and doesnt attempt to befriend them again.

"i look for a picture of you
to keep in my pocket
but i cant seem to find one
where you look how i remember

look how i remember
look how i remember

paint it over"

this verse reminds me of three characters, so this explanation will be a bit complicated.
"i look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket" reminds me of aubrey and how she stole basils photo album to retrieve photos of mari to keep in her room because its all thats left of mari.
"but i cant seem to find one where you look how i remember look how i remember look how i remember" reminds me of sunny and how he has an idealized version of mari with no flaws in his dreams.
"paint it over" reminds me of how sunny scribbled on all of the photos in basils photo album and basil taking the blame for it (which ends up getting him bullied by aubrey)

"treasure hunter you are dead,
the light of the world is fading"

these lyrics remind me of the quote on maris headstone. the quote is, "the sun shined brighter when she was here" which is a metaphor for sunny being happier when mari was alive.

"theyll never know how id stared at the dark in that room
with no thoughts like a blood-sniffing shark"

these lyrics remind me of sunny and how his friends (aside from maybe basil since him and sunnys suffering were alike) will probably never know the true extent to what his suffering was

"so i am relieved that the turbulence wasnt forecasted
i couldnt have changed anyways
i am relieved that id left my room tidy
goodbye"

these lyrics remind me of the knife ending in omori. "i couldn't have changed anyways" reminds me of how much basil and sunny were suffering and how hopeless they must have felt. "i am relieved that id left my room tidy" reminds me of basil, i cant quite pin why but yeah. and then the goodbye reminds me of both of them killing themselves.

"wild women dont get the blues
but i find that
lately, ive been crying like a tall child"

this reminds me of aubrey. she can be referred to as "wild" at times because of her personality. in the game, she is seen to cry quite a lot (she also seems to cry when she is angry, as well.) and seemingly trying to hold back her tears.

"youre the sun, youve never seen the light
but you hear its song from the morning birds
well, im not the moon, im not even a star"

this reminds me of sunny and kel. kel is positive, upbeat, and full of energy. sunny is quiet, negative, and not fond of going out of the house. as described by omocat herself, kel has everything sunny needs.

"crack baby, you don't know what you want
but you know that you had it once
and you know that you want it back"

this reminds me of sunny and how he doesnt really know what he wants, because hes in denial. (he knows it in a literal sense, this is just a metaphorical way of representing his denial.) he knows that once mari was alive, and he know that he wants it back.

"and then ill be nothing forever
and all of my memories
and all of the things i have seen
with my eyes with my body with me"

this reminds me of the bad ending and how sunny (likely) has a twisted perception of how his death would be taken by his friends (i think this because after the bad ending, the title screen to omori shows a cloudy sky with calming sounds. this makes me think sunny thinks everyone would be better off if he was gone, which is supported by the fact hes suicidal. but maybe im looking to far into things.) he thinks him and his memories will no longer be valued by his friends.

"i think my ways are wearing me down
but if i gave up on being pretty
i wouldnt know how to be alive"

these lyrics remind me of aubrey and how shes unknowingly pushing her friends away from her ("my ways are wearing me down") and how she realizes shes been pushing them away all along instead of trying to fix their friendship. "but if i gave up on being pretty i wouldnt know how to be alive" im twisting the meaning her by pretty being changed slightly, but this reminds me of her reluctance to change her ways at first.

"so, i dont blame you
if you want to bury me in your memory
im not the girl i ought to be, but
maybe when you tell your friends
you can tell then what you saw in me
and not how i turned out to be"

this reminds me of aubrey and when she realizes how she was being unfair to basil. she says she feels like a jerk, and clearly feel remorse over how she treated him. she also could feel bad about the person shes become when she used to be so nice. (a lot of these are for aubrey. can you tell shes my favorite character?)

"it would be a hundred times easier
if were young again"

this reminds me of sunny and basil and how they dwell on the past and wish they were young again.

"i havent told anyone, just like we promised
have you?"

this reminds me of sunny and basil and how they kept maris true cause of death from everyone for 4 years.

"i didnt know what it would take
sometimes, i think i am free
until i find im back in line again"

this reminds me of how sunny doesnt realize how stuck he is in his own fantasy world until its too late. he sees hallucinations of enemies from headspace in the real world, and sees hallucinations in the form of his old memories. he tries to recover in the sunny route, but continues to come back to headspace each night.

"i dont know what to do without you
i dont know where to put my hands
ive been trying to lay my head down
but im writing this at 3am."

this reminds me of hero and how he fell into a depression after maris death. though its not shown in the game, its possible he has trouble sleeping as thats a common symptom in people with depression (though so is over sleeping, but it could also be this, because with over sleeping, its very easy to screw up your schedule and ending up awake at 3am)

"on sunny days i go out walking
i end up on a tree-lined street
i look up at the gaps of sunlight
i miss you more than anything"

this reminds me of kel and aubrey (sunny doesnt go out often, and i feel as if it just doesn't fit hero and basil) and their grief regarding mari. while kel seems to have recovered fine, he still misses mari. and while aubrey seems to have stopped caring and found a new friend group, she stills misses mari, and deep down she still cares about her former friends.

"and autumn comes when youre not yet done
with the summer passing by, but
i dont think i could stand to be
where you dont see me"

this reminds me of sunny and how hard he took maris death (they all took maris death hard, but im focusing on sunny for this.) he shuts himself in his house and lives in his own fake world, because he cant stand to be in a world where mari isnt alive (even going as far as to kill himself in some endings). as for autumn passing, this indicates its been a struggle for a long time, which is true to sunny.

umm i hope u liked reading this pls remember i am human and i make mistakes so if u disagree with anything on here don't go off on me. also i didn't know if i should put this in music or games so i just put it in games