My 1st poem in years working on getting back to me : Somewhere 🧿

Somewhere between putting walls up to protect me but not so high that I lose my authenticity

Somewhere between I don’t want to give anyone the opportunity to know me like that again but knowing I can’t let the worlds ugly take my rawness 

Somewhere between I gotta stop helping ppl knowing damn well they wouldn’t help me but also knowing what it’s like to feel stuck and alone 

Somewhere between I gave you the benefit of doubt knowing you would hurt me but also knowing I know nothing if I don’t try 

Somewhere between hating how deeply and passionately everything affects me during the lows but realizing how beautiful it can be during the highs 

Somewhere between beating myself up knowing I know better but also being gentle and kind  because I’m only human and still learning 

Somewhere between Let me chill I know I can be a lot but not watering myself down for a mf soul 

Somewhere between being a glorious mess but still healing, learning and growing 

Somewhere between accepting, valuing and wanting to keep the friendship but also knowing i want more 

Somewhere between my body needing to be pleasured but knowing none of y’all deserve to get next to me 

Somewhere between I miss my best friend I should reach out but everything happens for a reason it’s part of the journey 

Somewhere between being so misunderstood and wishing ppl got me but also realizing being different and weird is my super power 

Somewhere between I’m way too sensitive but not invalidating my feelings 

Somewhere between I’m tired of this shit but also realizing it’s not worth my energy 

Somewhere between chaotic but peaceful 

Somewhere between I have no idea what I’m doing but I know I’m going to be ok 

Somewhere between who I was and who I’m becoming