The Urge For A New Thing

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I've felt stagnant lately. Like, I've been doing fine, I'm not unhappy! I'm just. Bored. Or like... mentally bored. There's actually been plenty happening. But I want to get into something new.

The two things I know I want to dedicate more time to once I can are bass guitar and doing more boxing, but both require money (lessons/gym membership), and though I will shortly have a job, it'll still be a bit before my first paycheck. And like, I feel like I don't necessarily need a new hobby to dump a bunch of money into. I'm still into doing my kandi stuff. But I'd kill for like... a new show/movie/media to make my brain explode. And to be fair I haven't seen the new Spiderverse movie yet, and I've heard it's absolutely amazing, so that could be that. I also am still holding out hope Our Flag Means Death season 2 comes out this summer.

I think part of the problem is also I just don't... feel like doing more than watching Youtube/comfort shows and playing Minecraft. I could do more but I'm exhausted. It's been months since I've had an uninterrupted night's sleep; when my depression was flaring up it caused me to wake up multiple times during the right, launching me out of REM sleep, so regardless of how much sleep I get it's never fully restful, and my memory isn't as good. And even though my emotional state has gotten better, my sleep was disturbed for so long that it's been incredibly difficult to fix my schedule. Blegh.

Right now, after having a hectic weekend and the underlying sleep stuff I just mentioned, I'm just so tiredd. I don't even know how to elaborate further. Tomorrow I've got to go into my research lab and I hopefully will get news about the job (they're doing a background check, then should get on-boarded). Also, I emailed a tailor/cobbler about getting a zipper added to my tapestry bag on Friday. I figure they don't work on the weekend, but maybe I will get a reply tomorrow. I'll have to make another blog about the saga of me trying to get a damn zipper added to this bag once the saga is finally finished, I didn't think it'd be such a challenge!