poetry i like

"i never realized how close

love and hate actually are

until i met you. 

until i loved you so deeply 

and was forced to watch you

walk away like i meant nothing,

and how angry it made me

to realize how bad you treated me,

and how frustrating it was

to still love you despite it.

i wanted to kiss you,

but i also wanted to punch you.

i wanted to be there for you,

but i also wanted you to suffer alone.

i wanted to hear your voice,

but it also made me angry

every time you spoke to me.

i wanted to hold you close,

but i also wanted you as far away as possible.

how can i love you so passionately

but hate you so brutally

all at the same time?" -k.q.