sometimes i feel like i will never actually find something that can actually help me express myself. my physical form is so much more limited to who i am as a person, for money reasons, family reasons, whatever it is. the internet is nice bc i can be whoever i want and design my own persona thats different from "me" i hate my irl name so much and the fact i can just be anonymous is so comforting to me. sometimes i just wish i could have a rly beautiful pink home, and be like maybe a music artist or actor and have so many like jirai kawaii and gyaru clothes and a bunch of makeup id love that, but my family is like rly old fashioned and religious so i can barely wear any makeup or dress how i want ππ this is so stupid to complain abt since its just life in general and its probably gonna be like this forever, but its as if ill never even find myself. im questioning if im a dude but just like rly feminine but my parents would never accept me as that and id feel like id never physically look like a dude. i hate reality so much like whys it so hard. i literally live inside my own world in my head, and when i realize that i will never actually have the shit i thought i have in my head i genuinely become so depressed. i hate reality
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reality sucks
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luka :3
as a trans dude who dresses and presents pretty femininely, you can become the cool feminine dude or whatever you wanna be when you get into adulthood. reality may suck but you can always look forward to your future reality when things end up working out. i feel the same way especially since i struggle with dysphoria and all that but things will change and it always helps to have some support :)
ηͺεγ
Hey, fun fact, you will become a grown adult one day. And yes, then you CAN do whatever you want as long as you have an income! Most important is to try and relax a little instead of staying in the complete echo chamber that is the internet. Itβll be different one day and waiting isnt that terrible when you realise youβre still finding yourself anyways.
i didnt rly know how to respond to this but i rly thank u for this advice![π](https://static.spacehey.net/emojis/v1/sob.png)
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It really will be alright. One day we all turn 25 and get our own hands on deck lol
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