TW: Vent!! Parental stress / Job

My parents are really pushing me out to get a job so I can pay for my college, n its stressful. I'm not upset about having to get a job or anything, in fact I want one, but the way my parents are going about it is stressful. They've made a list of all the money they've given me over the year, (Ex: me asking for $20) and all my bills they've had to pay. All year ive been applying to jobs wherever i've been and they havent hired me. I've applied to at least 20+ jobs in the last month since ive gotten back to my hometown and they haven't gotten back to me or rejected me. Added onto the fact that my parents are constantly asking when im getting a job and telling me to work harder in applying when in fact I am is frustrating. The other day they were talking and mentioned me not going back to college if I don't get a job/ meet their money quota. My parents aren't the healtiest so the idea of not going back is terrifing to me. I guess my main point in this is that I don't know what to do. My dad keeps on saying the job market here is good, when in reality its sh!t. I just wish I could get a job and get what i nned to get done, but when my parents are constantly asking about funds n stuff it makes me wanna cry. I hope I don't sound like a spoiled kid here, im really not i swear ;-;

this is very unslay

- beanie