rambling :thumbsup:

today.... my school friend came to my house >.>

he wasnt supposed to be here, my mom was giving him a ride downtown and suggested he come over... i didnt want him to but.. i thought if i said that i would sound rude. i never have anybody over and i was just nervous the whole tiem.. what do friends do in-person??? i have no clue how to interact with anyone online, much less irl :/. i wish i was normal and knew how to.. exist.

ok really... what are irl friends supposed to do?? theres nothing going on in my life ever and i cant just.... send a silly gif and go from there... ughhh i hate real life i hate it i hate it. but whatever my friends hate me anywayzz.

im graduating(?) in like 2 weeks or something. im going to be a junior in highschool maybe, i will probably fail most of my classes and get held back. funny how ive spent my school years being a loser social reject who nobody wants to talk to and cant even make a friend to save their life. i hope if i make it to adulthood that it gets better for me.