Being an actual teen is surreal

Today i took a pregnancy test... simply bcs my period is late. Luckily i wasnt pregnant.

Then i smoked an e-cig and threw the used part in the same bag the test was in.

I. forgot. to. throw. that. bag. away. when. i. left. for. school.

My dad found it but it was all good.

my point is how did i get from watching shit on netflix that follow the same story as the life i live. how did i get to this point?? 

Even before this something was always happening and im simply not believeing that we live such life.

parties. drinking. drugs. pregnancy scares. break ups. make ups. hook ups even ffs its so real now 

i was just never able to understand that its all real

edit: im not trying to be cool im fucking scared.