i cant sleep

i need to sleep but i cant so im just gonna type shit that comess to my mmind

i wanna escape reality rn like i wanan go on a whimsical ass adventure. I need to like run away and live my red wicked and cool life in a castle on the beach.

i need to be alone and run away from it all.  I wanna go to the beach rn. I love the ocean. i need to do whimiscal ocean magic.

i shoulld go on a hike rn, last time i went i left a pentagram with sticks and did some earth magick shit it was whimsical and cool

i need to decompress amdi  hate being inside 

im going inssane i need to go outside rightnow i hate being indoors

i need to beocme a better person, im an asshole. ive been trying to ever since my ex left me because they said i was a "tErRibLe pErsOn" (which im not, they were overreacting (/srs) but il admit i have been a dick a few times). Ive gotten better but like i'm an asshole. Im not even tyring to be funny it just comes out sosmetimes adn i dotn mean it

fuck school and fuck life tbh im a god 

ok i dont wanna type anymore im fonan go listen to asmr rain sounds and pretend im in twilight ok bye