im so confused...

im torn im angry and so incredibly sad but i cant feel that way at all im not entitled to those feelings at all. i just want to feel valued, appreciated. validated and heard im so tired of patiently waiting to be acknowledged. and even when i want to say what i feel i cant bcuz i get rejected or stopped or told to cope. im trapped in this silver birdcage that hurts to even touch. 

I don't want to be stepped on anymore, I'm not a child. I'm an adult capable of making her own decisions well aware of the consequences.