When you wish upon a star... (Warning: TMI inside)

My daughter passed away and I got my tubes tied. I am glad I did, but I still have moments where I wish I was pregnant or could still get pregnant. Like now, things are weird.... and a little tmi but my cycle wasn't normal at all. It normally lasts 3 days with a little residual for 2 days after. But it was super light but still more than what I would say could be called implantation bleeding. But, my boobs are still sore after the fact. And my cycle ended with absolutely no residual bleeding. *sigh* I know it is 97% unlikely that I am pregnant, but sometimes I wish I could be. So, here's to hoping I get more symptoms. And at the same time, here's to hoping it's all in my head. May the odds be ever in my favor.