The Feeling

Ever get that feeling like the whole world around you is crumbling down and you’re slowly sinking into the newly created sinkhole. You feel helpless the louder you scream for help the softer your voice gets until you can’t be heard anymore. The more you try to fight it the faster you sink, giving up is not an option because then you feel like a failure inside and that causes the sinkhole to get bigger and consume you. You look around as the world around you start to vanish and become some what of a distant memory that floats away with time. The people that was around starts to vanish into thin air as if they were just a figment of imagination and they never really did exist. Then you start thinking oh god was my life a lie or why did I deserve this. Which then turns to self pity and that leads to unhealthy habits like turning to drinking heavy or doing drugs to ease the pain or make you numb to reality. That doesn’t help you it only makes it worse, you start doing things you wouldn’t normally do in result of the drinking or drug usage. This leads to a life of crime or death but in a way that’s where you rather be dead or in jail, because you already feel worthless you already feel self pity you already feel like your world around you is crumbling and you’re sinking. No one notices so you sink deeper and deeper into the sinkhole until you no longer exist!!!