hating my boss rn

so basically, last saturday, my boss offhandedly said that she wished i was putting more "education" in the social media posts i make for the gallery i work at. we are a very niche gallery (i can't say much more or it might become clear where i work somehow?), and when i started working here i knew absolutely nothing about that niche or about art in general. my boss KNEW this, i didn't lie. so when she said this i got kind of irritated and cut in and was like, "no, i can't do that, or else it's going to take forever to get the posts out and you want me to be posting at LEAST once every other day, if not more. and i can't go back to running each post by you because it will take forever because you correct every word of my captions." 

it was snappish, i will admit that. but this isn't the first time my boss has said something like this, knowing full well that she hasn't offered me the kind of training i need to be able to what she wants me to. i will say, for the fucking record, that i do try to add more education/explanation to the artwork posts when i can see for myself that there is something within the art that hints at or necessitates that. but i don't do it with every sculpture of, like, a fish, because those aren't necessarily meaningful, they're just subjects! and i haven't even LIVED in this part of the US for a year yet, i don't know what kinds of cultural activities or phenomena are significant and worth posting about and what is just trite. and she, again, knew this! 

but apparently this max 2-min long conversation bothered her so much that she requested we meet with each other on wednesday. the meeting began with her asking me to close the door, which definitely did not bode well. i knew i wasn't going to get fired or anything (my coworkers would have known about that, and they assured me they had no idea why she wanted to talk with me), but there was no way this wasn't about my comment from a few days ago. so i came in kind of prepared to stick up for myself but also not really knowing which direction it would go. 

the thing about the conversation is that at the time, when i was actually having it, it didn't feel so bad. my boss told me she felt like i didn't want to research further, and i corrected her, saying i simply had no idea where to start and just telling me to "go read the books in the back!" isn't actually helpful. she seemed to understand that. but looking back, i've become a lot more jaded about the whole thing; she started talking about, basically, every area that i was lacking in, even pulling out specific facebook and instagram comments she had physically written down to tell me i hadn't replied to them--nevermind that i didn't reply to them because i needed her to give me information and she is impossible to reach during the workday and we had more important things to deal with, i thought. she told me i use too many exclamation points in my captions after i brought up that she nitpicks everything i write, which is not exactly a resolution to the problem. she's still going to nitpick, even if i drop the exclamation points. 

to me, everything about that convo, in retrospect, just screamed "you really don't seem like you want to work here, and honestly you aren't doing as good of a job as i thought you would be by now, so i don't know if i want you working here either." which, fair enough, i guess. 

she did fucking tell me her "one real critique" (hilarious wording) was that i spend too much time on "personal things," which is really fucking bold considering she's a nightmare to communicate with and thus i have to sit and wait for her to respond to my messages or look at my project drafts before i can ever move on. that's the only time i do "personal things," and i've never been the one to make us late for anything, it's always her. she seems to think that if i have finished a project i should either be a) researching in some vague way, like picking up a random book and reading it; or b) asking her what else she wants from me which, again, necessitates her being fucking reachable, which she rarely is. and i don't particularly WANT to spend 7 hours a day constantly doing busywork because she doesn't have time to check my work and doesn't trust me to do it myself. 

it's just infuriating. so i'm looking for a new job, now. it's funny because even though this is an "elevated" retail position that is hardly retail and is more, like, graphic design/marketing, i still feel like i'm not qualified for anything other than base retail positions. which i guess isn't entirely true, but i don't know how to search for different jobs. this whole situation really sucks. why oh why can't the few stores i actually want to work at be hiring right now?