today (19/05/2023)

today I stayed in my room all day. that’s normal. almost every day I stay in my room all day. my initial intention was to wake up at 7:20am, but I fell asleep as soon as the alarm was turned off. then I woke up at 9:46am, but it was too late for me to do anything, so I fell asleep again. I finally woke up at 1:30pm and I was too tired, like if I had only slept for three hours, so I had lunch with my mom and then I came back to my room. I didn’t do anything all day. my plans were to study for a dissertation that I will have next week, but I just heard music, played Plants vs Zombies and saw some random videos on YouTube, mostly about Eurovision. today was cloudy and rainy, it’s my favourite climate. I liked this, it’s not common to have rain here in Marseille, it’s almost always sunny. I don’t like the sun. 

when I was going to take a bath I stayed for some time looking at my reflection in the mirror. I wasn’t recognizing myself, like if I was looking at a soulless body. I don’t like my body. I don’t like to look at myself. I don’t know… everything looks so savourless. 

it took more time that I needed to write this. I need to improve my writing skills.