Being allowed to be shirtless in public still feels so awkward after top surgery lol

It's like really freeing and gender affirming and stuff but it's an adjustment. I'm still very feminine presenting so like if it weren't for the blaringly obvious scar I'd just look like a flat chested woman so I worry people are like missing the scar and it just seems like I'm flashing people. My surgeon told me yesterday that I should start sitting out in the sun for like 15 minutes a day to stimulate the melanin production in the nipple grafts. I really want to speed up the melanin process cuz I'm black and my nipples are currently pink so it looks really weird and I want them to look normal by June cuz I wanna be shirtless at pride. I just went out on my balcony and like deliberately taking off my shirt in a place where people can see me is such an odd feeling cuz like growing up the idea of my shirt blowing up is like the same thing as my skirt blowing up it's super indecent and embarrassing. And with dysphoria it felt super uncomfortable to be exposed even when I was in private. A few weeks ago it was super hot in my room even with the window open and I realized I could just take my shirt off and it would feel normal and it wouldn't make me super depressed. I never realized how much effort I always put into not seeing my own body. It's so amazing having nothing to avoid now. I also got an ad for swimsuits the other week and I realized it probably makes more sense for me to get swim shorts now instead of a two piece. It feels fucking surreal. I barely even go swimming but I'm so excited for it.