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invited over to someone's house after I haven't seen them for awhile. I want to see them but I'm anxious at the same time. I put it off for a long time before now because I was just so out of it, so I can't really just cancel again.
not trying to avoid them, just wanting to avoid being perceived and generally existing in front of other people (mortifying ordeal) (daily experience) (hate it). it's hard for me to be so far away from home where i can't just escape to my room
desire to make more friends and be more outgoing < desire to introduce myself to new people. I just want to be inside...reading and sorting things...
I always feel like I'm surrounded by strangers, and I'm nervous around strangers, so I'm nervous around everyone
for some reason I can't fathom, I just want to cry
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Nyx☆
It'll be fine i hope. I think in any case having someone in your corner is good and friendships are valuable, but i wouldn't recommend trying to seem more outgoing and talkative when it doesn't align with your soul. People will love you the way you are, you don't have to be overly-social for that :)
this is a very delayed response, but thank you for the kind words - they mean a lot
I think it's easy to get caught up in the ideal of being a very social, fast-paced person, since that lifestyle is so glamorized in an increasingly quick-moving world. But what you've said is true, it's most important to stay true to yourself.
putting that knowledge into action is a whole separate beast, but still. ^^"
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True, takes a lot to follow other people's advice, not to mention your own. But it doesn't hurt to try
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