My Bipolar.

my life is a party like i drowning deep in a sea of LSD. what makes my body holy and me holy is my thoughts, my scars and my bipolar. No one sees. No one wants tho. its like a roller coaster i bet. You don't know what it feels like to have your feelings on the fringes if you're not like me. Shopping like a maniac, dancing all day, thinking that you are the only god, being furious everybody even your loved ones, damaging your relationships, self harm, wanting to die, shoplifting, sleepless nights or hypersomnia, creativeness, racing thoughts like formula 1, never stops talking, annoying everyone, overeating or undereating, feeling like all the weigh of life is on your shoulders... idk how much i suffer more. Feeling fucking weightless or feeling heavy. makes you want to shoot a bullet in your head. Feeling like noone can help you. Stucked in your own reality and emotions. No one can help me until i die even when they dont believe you. 

Be friend with yourself or destroy it.

- a girl with bipolar disorder.