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i honestly feel really sad. and empty. i have career goals but thats kinda it in my life. i dont really feel fulfilled from seeing friends, and most of the time i would rather be alone. I would like a relationship, but I have only met one person I could imagine myself with and they live so far away so that wouldnt really work anyway. I look relatively cool so its not difficult to meet people when im out, but i rarely follow up with them later on or actually connect with these people because i met them when i had this cool mask on.
i guess the reason why i am posting this is just to see if im the only one like this. I do suffer from anxiety but this is different, and i just want to know if every human feels like this or if i just lack this essential layer needed within me to interact and live happily in this world with you guys.
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That makes the two of us. There are many people, including myself, who find fulfillment in solitude. After doing some self-reflection, I realized that I'm hyper-independent, and I'm content this way. I've never been interested in romantic relationships because I value my independence greatly. Consequently, maintaining friendships is challenging for me because I tend to attract people who are needy and dependent.
It's easy to feel dissatisfied when you think you don't have a purpose in life. A feeling of purpose provides our lives with meaning, focus, and fulfillment. Exploring your values, interests, and passions might be beneficial for this reason. Finding fulfillment is a personal journey that may change over time. Take your time, please.
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I can kinda relate to this even though I am in a relationship. Only a little, but I thought I'd comment anyway. I haven't had real life friends in a long time, and I both want to and don't cause it sounds nice but then it would also not be worth the amount of effort I'd have to put into it. So I've got some online friends but rarely talk to them too.
Well, I am diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder, maybe if you look it up you can see yourself in it too. I kinda hope not though.
firstly, thank you for answering! it means a lot that you replied anything at all. I have looked up avoidant personality disorder and i think that i dont feel a fear of rejection as much as general anhedonia.
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Ah I see, when you said you met them with a cool mask on I could relate cause I feel like if my friends knew the real me they'd reject me, so I must have tricked them at the time somehow. I looked up anhedonia and I am so sorry if you are experiencing this.
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