callie’s conundrums 11

these past two and a half-ish months have been absolutely INSANE. in a mostly good way, though. for starters, i finally recovered from that trainwreck of a friend group from not so long ago and now i’m surrounded by my buddies who accept me for who i am (they are just as insane as me)! it’s seriously pretty wild. like… woah… these people… are REAL? 😱 real as in being a good person, as for the LITERAL meaning of real… i kinda doubt it. i think they’re hallucinations! and i’ve also been raw dogging these last few weeks of school and i can feel myself turning into, *looks at notes* the american psycho. or something like that.

freshman year of hs was pretty bangin’! it’s just that, like any other week before a huge break, school becomes a million times more exhausting and everything becomes more exhausting and it makes a guy want to slap an egg in half. snap? slap? i dunno how egg physics work! can you snap an egg?

but seriously, it’s so baffling to me how much people change, disappear, or get replaced within such a short amount of time (that also feels comically long at the same time). like, if you told me at the beginning of this school year that i would cut off my long-time friend of 5 years, i would prob laugh. and also stay up all night and go “yeah. i can see that coming.” if i had the ability to put the pieces together, that is.

also my art. good lord, my art from the beginning of the year was complete ASS. maybe i’m being too hard on myself, but, eww…. why do they look like that… at least that’s a sign i’ve improved! especially with having a more consistent art style, and not to mention my writing.

and my personality too i think? i’m not really sure what the push was, but i one day woke up and i thought to myself, “man, i HATE being a pushover.” and then that’s when i decided to raw dawg EVERYTHING!! who cares if i’m too silly or obnoxious? those are CORE ASPECTS of my character and i wouldn’t have that any other way. and yeah!

take this as some kind of inspirational, motivational post… or something. like, “hey! if callie can go from being a complete basket case to a cool absolutely fresh beast of a guy in less than a year, then i can more than definitely do that!” and i think that is all :)