13/05/23

                      ☆saturday, may 13, 2023☆                          

hii ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა this is my first blog entry i want 2 make this some sort of online diary, i feel really lonely and i think journaling my day will help with that ^_^  i've always been too lazy 2 make a diary and my life is a little too boring. 

sorry for any grammar mistakes, english is not my first language and i am 13

overall rating for today: 8.5/10

tws/cws: none

today i woke up at 11am, but i stayed in bed until 2pm, i woke up a bit sad, not wanting to do anything, the bed was consuming me , i thought we were going to stay in because we were out of money, but my dad told me to get ready to go the mall. i really enjoy going to the mall, i don't really go out with my friends because it makes me super tired, talking 2 ppl make me tired, i cannot deal with ppl :;(∩´﹏`∩);:! our friend group has 15 people, i'm not close to any at all so i prefer to do things alone. i had a snickers for lunch because we didn't really have anything to eat in the morning 

i got ready in like 40 mins. i went with cigarette jeans, a lilo & stitch shirt, red shoes, red ribbons and some star clips ! not really a fan of this outfit but i have few outfits and most of my clothes are in the washing machine  

i bought a lot of stuff  i spent 148 BRL, which is a lot for the items i bought. i can't help but check every shop and buy useless stuff, impulsive buying is my healthiest coping mechanism  i bought 3 stickers sheets, 1 box of post-it, 3 pencils, pink hair dye, facial sunscreen, shampoo, a milkshake, popcorn and an eyebrow razor!! i spent nearly the whole day at the mall, i saw a lot of beautiful people, like actually beautiful and they smeemed so cool, but i avoid talking to people and meeting new people, it never really works in the end. my legs hurt from walking

it's 10pm, i don't really get to stay up so late because i get up at 5am for school. on weekends i actually try to stay up later, since the night is the only time of the day i am alone with myself and my thoughts, there's nothing i could be doing but spending time with myself. i love how silent the night is, i finally have some peace and my head is not that loud. i might buy some new steam games and play them for the rest of the night 

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