12-05-23 leavers

AA OMG today was so stressful 

i had like three panic attacks upstairs whilst all my friends were downstairs. and my best friend walked in whilst i was like centimetres from relapsing 

omg i couldn’t stop crying but when i finally was able to go downstairs (bc we had to leave in like 10 mins to get to school in time) my dad asked wether i was okay and i just broke down crying again

it was such a horrendous day and i am just so stressed >< pray it’ll get better soon bc idk how i can go on like this HAHAH