[LOG: 12/5/1999] i'm leaving the academy soon

i'm exhausted, tbh. and scared. the academy was scary enough, but at least there was a tiny veil of protection. idk what's gonna happen when i'm out. i'm still training for the exam, and i'm finishing my proposal to the academy. it's due in less than 15 days and i don't feel ready at all. what will happen in six months when i have to leave for good? what will they say to me before i cross the gates into the city? i'm writing this because i'm scared and lonely and the city is so big and dangerous and idk what i'm gonna do. if you're reading this, please let me know.